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GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!! You fake ass fucking people, I swear I will never be the same after this. One minute I’m the nicest damn person and the second I make a life-supporting selfish decision to get my ass in shape with this world, I’m a fucking devil to you all! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! I would say to each one of you that has a problem with me if I just knew who you were. Don’t ever talk to me again. Don’t criticize me, END IT. I am sick of fake ass people. Let me make a responsible decision by taking more time for myself for a change. Fuck everyone that has a problem with me and get off of my back! YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT. Hating on me? Dislike me? I don’t care! Step off! 

Dude…

I need a freakin outlet…for real.

Sometimes:

The shit you say is really inappropriate. If we weren’t related, I’d really kick your ass. Watch yourself next time.

Keep your head up?

Maaaannn….

How many times have YOU been told this before?

Bullshit…

Let me give you an anonymous scenario.

“Hey man…my dog died of scoliosis and a bad case of rabies and I got my wisdom teeth removed, but they removed a part of my tongue too.”

-“Ah shit that sucks bro…”

“Dude it gets even worse, my amputated leg is starting to grow teeth…”

-“Wow, really man?”

“Man and my damn girlfriend is seeing like five other people dude!” (This is not true, it’s a made up story dammit)

-“No way!”

“Way man! I’m so f*&%ing confused!!! Like why is this all happening to me?!”

-“Dude, all I can say is everything gets better. This all happened for a reason you know? Just keep your head up and things will be alright. Chin up, brother.”

”????”

How the FUCK can you give this advice?? After all, my chin was down this whole time AND I was looking to the floor all my life, so maybe if I look up into the sky, I’ll get a double rainbow surprise and things will get better. 

Right?

That’s why I am struggling so much? That’s why I can’t even trust my own family with my emotions? That’s why I have no moral support? Because my chin was down?! My head was down?! FUCK YOU.

I mean that. I don’t want to hear it anymore. I’m just angry right now, please excuse me. But it’s really hard to see everyone else doing so damn well or at least decent and surviving and I am kicked to the gutter with my arm outreached with a tin can and roaches are covering me! Ugh, enough of this chin up shit! 

HELP ME OUT PLEASE!!!! Your dumb words don’t make me sleep at night, quiet my stomach from growling, NOR pay my fucking tuition!!!! So can it!

Keep my head up…shut it.

Sometimes:

I really hate what our world has come to. People get so pissy about the most insubordinate things. I just wish people paid each other more common courtesy because the world is starting to give up on us. We all live a greedy, monetarily incompetent lifestyle and I’m sick of it. Why is it always about money? Every little thing we do, is for a quick buck and when we can’t even afford to recover loose change, the world stops for organizations. Greedy ass human beings…I want to live in a world where it really is not all about social hierarchy and wealth. I just want to be happy. What ever happened to not just professionalism, but respect and compassion for each other when we are in need? I’ll tell you what the problem is…people just don’t give a simple shit anymore, and that’s sad. Sometimes, I just can’t help but be angry about the conflicts I face. These problems amongst us really need to stop.

One. More. Week.

I can’t wait to be with you again. No matter what the future has in store for us…we are being watched oh so closely by God right now and always. Let’s show Him how much we love each other and thank Him for bringing us to this peaceful event of this summer and our lives together. I’ll see you in about 7 days. I love you Flo Munoz. Forever and always. And if you wanna ask me if you’re the only one anymore throughout our beautiful relationship, I’ll forever answer YES. You’re all I want and need. Forever. 

Ramble of the month…

*I am choosing to not be so technologically dependent. So here’s what I have to say for the month hahaha. 

• I will not be friends with people simply because it is a trend 
• I will not be an addict to any technological atmosphere
• I will respect and take better care of my body
• I will love my girlfriend, Flo Munoz unconditionally and with unending trials, forever
• I will appreciate my family more
• I will not stress too hard on the inevitable
• I will be my own damn person
• I will acknowledge my strengths but work on improving my weaknesses
• I will LOVE GOD
• I will not be trampled on
• I will fight back, using my intellect, not a clenched fist
• I will always love myself, regardless of whatever poor sap thinks little of my features
• I will not curse those who deserve praise for doing something I had never thought of doing
• I will have open talks with people on a respectable manner, since so many people are crippled of good conversation
• I will set my sights past the horizon
• I will never quit
• I will never disappoint someone purposefully, but if I ever do something out of character, I apologize beforehand and trust me, I will learn to be better
• I will stop blogging about things so much, get off the damn computer and live a life
• I will dream good dreams and when I have bad ones, work on their inner meanings and change for the better
• I will get better sleep at night
• I will always continue to write 
• I will pick up my youthful craftiness and draw and paint more
• I will embrace the spirit
• I will accept what others don’t
• I will accept who others don’t
• I will remain positive 
• I am going to succeed
• I am always going to love
• I will always be counting down those days to when I will be seeing her beautiful Filipino face again, even when we are finally together for good and she is simply gone for work as a beautiful LABOR AND DELIVERY NURSE! (I’ll have dinner waiting for you baby).
• I will not judge something by the content it is disclosed in, I will give things a responsible try before shooting them down. 
• I will marry Flo Munoz and I will be her squishy. :D 
• I will accomplish the art of magnificence 
• I will be a literary hope to others
• I will motivate and push people for what they want in life
• I will try to not be always grammatically correct
• I know I make mistakes so shut the fuck up talking about what I does lol
• I will blink less…I realized not too long ago I flutter my eyelashes like a fruit…stupid foreign objects damaging my eyeballs
• I will try my best to accept other cultures and languages, even though learning the language or culture in an Americanized way is a big N O.
• I will carry less luggage and travel more with willpower
• I will remain confident in my position here on Earth
• I am aware there are people out there in the world better then me on tons of levels, but you’re still not me and I don’t strive to be the best so get your head out of your ass.
• I will be physically fit
• Excuse me…I will be as physically fit as my mind and body allow…I’m not trying to Yoga every day… lame sauce
• Eh fuck it I’ll be physically fit
• I will do crafty things with my time, rather than pick my nose and count how many hair follicles I have…hahaha kidding!
• I will trust more in ME.
• I will live happily ever after…it appears I am living some sort of fairytale anyway…ahem ahem…a very masculine, testosterone filled fairy tale, with Hemi engines gold chains, lotsa cash, my beautiful girlfriend and MANswers for television. :D
• I will search nonstop for the magic in life
• I will dream about heaven…it seems nice!
• I will beat up and napalm every damn frog and toad on Earth just to make Flo happy…sorry frog and toad lovers.
• If I had half a mind, I would strangle some of my friends for just being dimwits, but I will refrain from doing that, because they love me and for some odd reason I at least appreciate them back (yeeaaahhh there’s no love coming from me unless you’re really special and not a bastard)…even if it’s a “friends by default kind of appreciation”…ya’ll are still some losers for not having my back when I need you though.
• I will lean with it, rock with it…bitches.
• I will appreciate the decisions made by those I love and work on making them happen 
• I will do much more community service
• When I work, I will love my job, even if I hate it. :)
• I will try my best not to be sour at those who have treated me like a pitiful baby elephant. :D
• I will love babies more
• I will hug tighter and kiss longer
• (Did I mention passion in the bedroom is important? LOL) I can mark this off
• I will sing and be proud of my voice, even if I can be a bit self conscience about my singing
• I will rap fiercely and nobody will fuck with me
• I will be a human, not one of those flying machines
• I will take on Giant Vultures to find your love
• I will climb bigger mountains than I have already trekked
• I will swim more in the ocean and slap skin with Dolphins
• I will love turtles for the beautiful sea creatures they are, and they will surf with me
• I will re-twist my dreads, but all you losers need to get off my jock about my hair…I love it, simple as that, so deal with the shaggy look fool!
• I will eat better
• I will challenge myself not to punch idiots in the face
• I will challenge myself even further to not explode on these foolish people
• I will indulge, when it is right to do so
• I will appreciate all that I am given, whether they are gifts or favors done for me…thank you everyone
• I will be an American and live whatever dream it is the forefathers were talking about
• I will fight back on these allergies…Georgia is known best for its dryness and bloody nose count in the mornings and evenings
• I will check up on my siblings more just to make sure they are not doing any dumb shit
• I will use protection
• I will be the biggest man in an argument and just remain optimistic, rather than ramble about lost indecencies. 
• I will dominate
• I will let these rappers and mediocre, talentless numskulls do their thing rather than hate on their money making idiocies. 
• I will endure the harder roads 
• I will shake hands with Obama 
• I decide when my life disintegrates and well, that ain’t happenin’
• I will embrace my culture, both Caucasian and Afro-american ethnicities alike
• I will teach others just things
• I will give my second mother a huge hug when I see her for all she has provided me with
• I will accept any opportune moment handed to me and jot it down as a learning experience, whether it be good or bad
• I will Floss and use Mouthwash as much as I can, so far so good!
• I will not know when this list will end. It just will.
• I won’t be so hasty in my decisions…if I don’t know one direction to choose, I just don’t know it, but it doesn’t mean I have to take an easy road either because it appears familiar
• I will cry sometimes
• I won’t decide who deserves what in their life, consequentially…for that is in God’s will and might
• I will lead with an iron fist…but a wise man once said, please do not decide to follow me, for I am simply a human. So I will be a leader, who just so happens to have iron fists…
• Love <3

OMG

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS GIRL. FLO, I AM GOING MAD CRAZY FOR YOU.